Throughout my life, I would say I’ve spent a great deal of time feeling LOST: unsure, scared, sad, nervous, lonely. I have been taking antidepressants since I was a teenager with bouts of depression, low self-esteem, disordered eating, social anxiety. I’ve spent a lot of time trying to find “happiness,” a place where I feel that I fit in.
A few years ago I came across a quote that I’ve come to see as a very important instruction for life, “Always find time for the things that make you happy to be alive.”
These words simplified things for me. Without wondering what OTHER people are doing, or what I believe I SHOULD be doing, I need to just pay attention to what makes me feel good and make time to do that. At this stage of my life, the first thing that comes to my mind is Running. Running makes me feel like myself, gives me a chance to just be, and helps me to reach a calm space inside. It makes me either forget what is troubling me for awhile, or helps me to get a better perspective on things. And so when I decided to finally start a blog about my life with depression, I knew I wanted to focus on running as my therapy/support/outlet, the positive thread in each week that keeps me sane.
Searching for available domains, I came up with Running Through It, – running through depression, anxiety, life. As a lover of words and quotes, I searched the web for “running through it” and found a quote from an admired author that floored me.
“Even still, we run. We have not reached our average of 57.92 years without knowing that you run through it, and it hurts and you run through it some more, and if it hurts worse, you run through it even more, and when you finish, you will have broken through. In the end, when you are done, and stretching, and your heartbeat slows, and your sweat dries, if you’ve run through the hard part, you will remember no pain.” ―
I had to read this passage again and again. My heart start beating faster and these words felt so big, so true. It sealed the deal on the title of my blog. I hope to use this website as a place to share my experiences with running and life. I hope to connect with others, and ultimately to just keep writing and connecting with myself.